Day 17

Today I must admit, is a reality check for me and I am not happy with the results.

I have been uneasy the last week or with the different things that have been happening, and especially with the weather.  I have even been questioning if I am doing all that God has called and asked me to do. I know that I have fallen short recently and that is a big factor.  I have done what I know I need to do for repentance, but for some reason (conviction) I feel like it hasn't been enough.  I know that one trick of the enemy is to use guilt to make us feel like we have done something to awful to be redeemed from whatever it was that you did.  I know that my heart is sincere and that my sins are forgiven.  I guess it is knowing that I sinned against my Lord, that hurts me the most.

Today was a challenge because we had sever weather that required us to evacuate our office.  I was fine at first, I grabbed my wallet, went to the hall and began to pray.  I was fine, I knew everything would be okay.  Then the hype began and instead of being the calm through the storm, I got caught in the storm.  I began to freak out too.

I talked to my BFF who confronted my fears and quickly reminded me that as a believer I have no business being scared.  That was enough to calm me down. 

I have been dealing with this situation all day.  I am going to pray my way through it.