Do I really have enough...

There are days when i feel like I have more than what I need, and certainly more than enough.  However, there are other days that cause me to question if I have enough at all.  I do agree that I have enough to be considered successful in life, however I do feel like there is a major component that is missing.  I have the house, the car, the kid, the education, the friends, the faith, but I do not have the husband.  I know it seems crazy, but I do feel like something is truly missing.  

Do not get me wrong, I have a very supportive family and group of friends.  I have a daughter who I love very much.  Despite all the love and attention I get from these two groups, the love and attention of a spouse/significant other always falls in a different category.  This is the attention that I crave, do not have.  (I know I am supposed to wait on him to find me, and trust me I am trying to do just that. I am just in a place where I feel like if I do not express the way I feel I just may scream.)

I come home, and a home it is indeed, however, I feel like I am missing the husband to welcome me here.  I would love to have someone to debrief my day with, to hug and fall asleep with.  I would love to have someone to come home to to cook for and do all those really adorable things we see in the movies and all go, awwww over.  

Beyond the desires for these things, I also want someone to sit next to during church.  I want to get in the car on Sunday mornings and drive in to church together.  I want to stand around as he talks to someone, and he says Honey, I will just be another minute, sorry to keep you waiting.  That would just melt my heart.  I cannot wait to say, " let me talk to my husband, and I will let you know."  I am excite for the husband God created for me, I am really really excited.  

I have a friend who gave me a very smart piece of wisdom, she told me just as I desire to meet him, I need to cover in him prayer now.  I never thought about praying for my husband, as much as I did praying for a husband.  It may not seem like a big difference there, but there is.  I often pray specifically for the husband I have not yet met, but the one I know God has chosen and is keeping for me.

Tonight would be a great night to hug him goodnight, since I have not met him, I will pray for him and be satisfied.

Flash Forward and Move In

Well, it has been a while and yes, I have many, many things to share.

The last time I posted I had run into a snag with the financing and had pushed back the closing date.  Well I am happy to say I have been in my home for 19 days now, and I am loving it!

We were able to get the financing finalized and were set to close on April 26th at 9am.  I was all packed, down to the couch pillows and headed to pick out new counter tops when I received a call from the lender saying we would not be able to close as scheduled.  Well the underwriter decided they wanted to do a few more things and closing was pushed back a day.  Well this put everything on hold.  I had to call my movers and let them know that I was not moving that day and would try to keep them posted as the process continued.

I was able to close the next day, at 4PM, 30 minutes before a ministry perfomance, but finally, it was closing time.  I took my mother with me and we met the Realtor at the title company, and we were ready to sign on the dotted line.  The blessing in the situation was that I did not have to bring any money to closing, in fact I was told that I had over paid and would be getting a check back.  That was an awesome sound, I mean it was MUSIC to my ears.  So we closed, I received my key, talked to my Realtor, who I consider an amazing friend, and was on my way to my new home, after the performance of course.

By the time I was able to get home, it was after 9pm and way too late to unload the truck.  So, I grabbed what few blankets we could see on the back of the truck, a vacuum (that I went to borrow from my mother) and went in for the night.  We had cleaning supplies ready and cleaned the bathrooms so we could at least be comfortable if we had to go.  We vaccuumed the whole house, and went to sleep. 

MOVING DAY!!!

Since I had already had my movers on stand-by for two days, I couldn't pull myself to ask them to do another day.  So instead, I called on a few of my teens, my bff, and a friend from high school to get the job done.  We unloaded the truck, and went back to collect the last few items.  As we were loading the second truck my mother and another friend were at the house cleaning and unpacking. 

After a couple hours of loading and unloading, we were HUNGRY!  Pizza hut to the rescue!

It was awesome to be in the new house...but...what is all this beeping....

All the batteries in the smoke detectors were about dead, so there was a constant beeping, as each room has one.

So replacing those were on the to do list...